Ghost boobs rule m'kay.

sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: nope. He doesn't have msn.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: no... i lurve being a girl..being appreciated that is..
wish you were younger: nah..older maybe..
cried because someone said something to you?: yes definitely..

What an adventure today has been! It all started when... (insert harp music here).

I woke up to my mobile phone ringing. I hate disturbed sleep. It's disturbing! It was my cousin. My phone died by the time I finished saying "what's up?", so I didn't find out what it was she called about. So I went back to my precious sleep...

About a half an hour later, the house phone rings. It's for me. Unusual. I never get phone calls this much in one day! Well, what do you know, it's Cuz! She tells me my sister was dropped over at her house, they were having a chat, she tells my sister she's going to take a shower, and when she came back, sis was gone...

So that was the main issue of the day. Apart from trying to become one with Windows Movie Maker, my family and I have been worried dead - not sick - about this twit who decided she'll just disappear and not let anyone close to her know about it. This had happened before, but it didn't involve people outside of our immediate family.

Little Sis calls up later on. "I'm at a friend's house, I'm safe." YOU IDIOT! EVERYONE'S LOOKING FOR YOU! WHERE ARE YOU? COME HOME NOW! "I'll come home when I'm ready." She hangs up.

She's never done this before. In fact, nobody in our family has ever done anything like this. I found it a little overdramatic since I had a hunch of what all this was about. Pops was concerned about her social life interfering with her studies. She's upset, blah blah blah, wants to prove something, la di dah. So I was 30% worried, 20% hungry, and 50% pissed off at her for causing everyone all this trouble. Why can't she just tell us where the fuck she is so we can all stop worrying. For fuck's sake, even her schoolmates whom she's already graduated with are looking for her!

Parents came home. They knew all about it. They came from Cuz' house. Apparently they had a discussion about her wearing informal clothes in a formal event. She was supposed to go but because she was wearing sandals, my parents thought it was inappropriate so they left her with Cuz. Why on earth would you run away because of that? It can't be just that. It's gotta be about that no-boys-before-studies thing. For sure.

Pops, Mum, and I: driving to a Christmas Party. Silence. Mum sobbing. We arrive.

The party was an adult's party. So that means it was lame, but funny because it's so lame. The highlight of the party was seeing some old mates and some past crushes. We go home.

Little Sis ain't home yet?!?! What the hell is goin on with that girl?! I go online. After a while I see her name pop-up. She's online! Bloody hell. We start the beginning of a longish-short conversation. She explains that she needs time to think, time to breathe, time to calm herself down. She was gonna jump in front of a car today. She's coming home soon. So on and so forth. Parents explain that if she doesn't come home in 24hrs, they'll call the police, and whoever she's staying with will be charged for kidnapping. Stubborness, Too Much Thinking and Overwhelming Self Pity engulfed Little Sis.

I was the one typing my parents' responses to her explanations. I was seriously on the verge of crying a pool of tears. I felt sorry for her because I know I've been there before, except I wasn't THAT bad. She's hell smart and she'd have deeper thoughts than I do. I even even more sorrow for my parents. They were trying ever so hard to calm the storm, so to speak, but to no avail. My mum even said that they'll leave if she doesn't want them there, as long as she comes home.

We almost got her to get picked up and stay over my brother's house but before we could make an arrangement, she types... "I'll call you tomorrow" and logs off.

In my family, relatives always come first. We have such a close-knit relationship that it pains me to see this happen. I mean, I know we've all had our teenage angst moments, shit, I thought she'd learned from MY mistakes!

need some help on deciding wat to buy wif my limited resources.

1. Crumpler Wonder weenie bag ($149)

2. Reef Slippers ($49)

3. Boardshorts ($70-80)

Hmm... or should i just save up the money..
bloody flash suddenly cock up.. dunno wtf happened!

I wish i'm good in arts and have more creative juice. Everytime i would stop to check out the cd cover design in HMV and wonder how these ppl can think of such nice and innovative designs. The same goes out for those web designer who can create such interesting flash movies and images. Sigh.. i wish i can be more artistic-inclined. I got arrowed to do the singlet design for my team's Dragonboat Experience for the freshies. Argh.... just couldn't think of any nice and yet good designs. I'm suppose to avoid using dragons, paddles or boat in my design. Damn... i really want to do a good job.. since the whole team would be wearing the singlet and it'll be really cool if i can contribute to the design. Feeling damn tired now.... din have my usual afternoon nap after gym and i think i spent too much time in front of the com trying to do some "magic" on my Macromedia Firework.. doh.. ohh changed a new song too.. Foreigner's I wanna know what love is. A super old song i think.. hmm but i like the song and i find it quite meaningful too cos i wanna know what love is. Can someone tell me?

Where should I start? hmmm I guess I could talk about school....I just got a letter on Friday congratulating me for making it on the President's Honor Roll, it makes me feel like a school nerd. It's like honor roll for the 4.0's. I have never gotten to this point academically in my life or with anything actually. It feels good to be recognized for exellence in ANYTHING! Very unlike the old me. The old me never took school seriously, it was always a place to socialize, I don't think i learned a damn thing in High school. It's such a shame. If I could go back and do anything different it would be that. I think back on it now and it really pisses me off that I screwed around. Things would have been so different for me if I had only chosen to apply myself...even a tiny bit. My goal in life is to give my children the education and guidance in life that nobody ever gave me. Kaya is on her daddy weekend. She plans on coming home tomorrow. She called me today and told me that she threw up and was getting sick and that she wanted me to hug her and take care of her. Even though I felt bad that I wasn't their to comfort her, it warmed my heart that she wanted her mama. I love my kids more than I could ever love myself or anyone else. I think about the mothers that don't have their babies to hold and it makes me hold mine just a little tighter. Cameron is giving me a run for my money. The boy has no interest in potty training. I have tried so many approaches and I just don't know what to do. This is even harder than trying to train Kaya...and she wasn't easy. Yesterday I set the timer for every 20 minutes and we would do a potty run and it didn't work! He pee'd in him undies every time. UGH, I need help! I called my mom and she is no help LOL....all she says is He is still a baby! I think I am going to buy a potty training book today and see if I can get some ideas. So today is my official day of working out religiously, even though I started yesterday. I gained 5 pounds! I now weight 135 and I can't fit my pants right. What the hell 5 pounds and my pants don't fit?? UGH! So I have vowed to lost 10 pounds in 2 months and I will do it. I sure as heck am not going to go and buy new clothes just cause my waist grew. I have no excuse not to work out and stop eating chicken wings! Anyway I need to get off of this computer for the day, sitting here is not going to help my cause...will update more later.

We got a steam cleaner, and it's cool. I was looking at the stars. They looked so far and I wished I could keep one for myself so I could see it anytime I please. But I guess stars look best among its kind. Against the dark sky. And then I wondered who else was looking at them with me.

Whithdrwan for the pure.